Daily

最近的生活没有任何特别
只是觉得我每一天的时间都不够用
我觉得我很累很累
我的倦累真的是无法用言语来表达
我可以在任何场所累到睡着

每一天放工回家
休息了一下以后
他就会来我家载我去他家吃饭
差不多每天很晚才回家
其实这些也没有什么特别

工作方面
我已经向院长辞职了
我很舍不得我的孩子
可是没有办法
我不可能要呆在那里一辈子的
最近我的孩子全部都忙着温习考试的东西
学校老师也没有给任何的功课
真的是把我给宠坏了
我呆在那里
完全没有东西做
就是坐在那里等时间一分一秒地过
闷到我想睡觉
浪费我的时间

24.3.2011
那是我最后一天呆在那里上班的日子
还有几天就可以熬过了
咬紧牙关，硬着头皮
我相信我可以
以前再难熬的日子
我都可以熬过去
这一点点的小事情
怎么会难道我呢？

在逆境给予陷害的人
是一个在未来给予你最大推动力的人
真的是很谢谢你们
成就了现在的我

每当我在幼儿园没有东西做的时候
我会拿出一张纸
写出我自己不开心好想要表达的东西
我觉得
我的情绪不能用口来述说
我需要用文字来表达我的情绪与想法

I keep SILENT
But not Means I'm agree what you doing
You don't know how much I feel suffer
I'm forcing Myself doing some thing I not willing to do

I patient all of the thing you done for me
I won't simply argue and fight with you
Both of us will keep quiet when the argument are appear between us
We already major
We will give each other cold down
After we just discuss what the problem are start up

You are the guy that I love
but
I feel you no mature enough
Sometime I won't feel the security on you
I hate sometime you told out the rude words
I really hate that
You wan I accompany you go out with your friend until midnight
But WHY when I wan you accompany I go out with my friend
Then you will give lot lot lot lot lot of Bullshit EXCUSE to me ?
I feel very unfair
Your friend is your world
And my friend is the landfill rubbish ?
Yap!
I already KNOW the fact in the early......

What can I do ?
I should patient all of this
when my Volcano will burst out ?
When you across my safety place or My patient are limited to you ..

I tell myself before
I'm not alone
I still have a lot of market value
I can leave up anyone especially YOU
Don't think I won't betray our relationship
I'm a unfeeling girl
I make the decision are very straight
Don't Blame me when I hurt you deep
When I leave you and go
Because you already lost the chance that I love you

Please treasure all of the thing that I do for you
I treat you well because you have the worth to let me love you
When you discovery my attitude are change
That mean I already disheartened to you ...
And I no necessary to treat you as before
Because you already NOTHING TO ME
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