stress

I feel very stress in this few day
currently I can't fall as sleep at the night
When I close my eye
My body is very tired
but my brain keep flask something in my mind

Still remember before
When I feel stress , sad and helpless
I will take my phone and contact my best friend
But NOW....
All already change after I in the relationship
They will temper as this
I can understand them
When they see I crying as a children because of a boy
I know their feeling also won't good

Currently I lost the equal in my life
I lost my best friend
as I lost the world
Sometime anything that I wanna other people give me advice and suggestion
I no anyone that can help me
I need a shoulder

YOU
Always blame me
I already try my best to be the perfect
Inclusive all of the thing that you wan I patient
I not GOD
I have my own thinking and feeling
You always wanna I follow your way to go
You elder than me so you are right at all

I going to tell you
If you not a guy that I love
I will leave you at the early
And also I won't patient the thing are out of my limit
After I start my college life
I will return your freedom to you
I won't disturb you anymore
You can do anything you wan to do
Hope you will happy because I make this decision

Maybe as our say
We still young
Maybe your friend also wish us as fast break our relationship as we can
If you wanna follow their suggestion
You just go a head
I will respect it
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Still leave few more week
My college will open school
Very happy that I can continue my study
I very scare I can't handle it

Using the word already not enough to describe my feeling
I choose to keep silent and follow what you wan I to do
p/s
Friend also very important to me
I don't hope we always because of this fight
I didn't blame you because of you break down three of us friendship
You totally no this value to blame me back also !!